weekend

i could sadly recycle my own play on words and call this post weakened or weak-end. i'm just feeling so nauseated by this whole sleazy kinky leathery scene. It just really really doesn't mean anything to me. Terms like cruising, action, session, i just can't take them. one person after another, everything just makes me feel nauseous. It's like all human contact is inhibited by one factor or another. I realise it's probably just me, but there really is nothing to look forward to and existing is so incredibly tiring. as a result i'm distancing myself more and more from everybody (but). i never call or keep in touch with anybody (but) and it feels like everything is slowly and inevitably slipping away. i'm not crying over myself, i know that you've got to go out and make stuff happen for yourself but i just don't have the energy for it. My gut reaction at the moment is i just really want to be left alone. plus, when you're this much fun, it's only fair not to share it with friends. after all you're supposed to like these people.