fall

i am impatient for the therapy to begin. i feel like a hamster spinning my wheel, i'm not getting anywhere and it's exhausting. thoughts recur in a cycle, they never change and everything always remains the same. over a year has gone and i have thought of nothing else. no wonder i'm losing it a little. the blog helps to elaborate thoughts as they occur to me but it's always the same wheel and i should maybe go for a little run outside for once. But the date is set, quite symbolically for the first day of autumn. new season and hopefully new start.