It's very easy to hurt. When you're addicted to vulnerability it's so easy to get hurt. Every time it's an impossible balance to manage: how much can you give and how much can you take. You put yourself in someone's hands and it's dangerous. Your feelings can be crushed like bubble wrap. And they so often do. So easily. You tell yourself you won't make the same mistakes again but soon enough the void is calling you again and you jump to dive deeper and deeper, lower and lower into a bottomless pit.
It's me, also. i'm so easily hurt that perhaps choosing the irrelevance of life as a slave is not the wisest choice. Anyway, not one that i've made. It has come to me and i've simply accepted. Or something like that. My acceptance is not complete because every time i don't know how much i can give and how much i can take.
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